On some level, we all want to connect. We all want to feel like someone else understands what we are going through. I think that sharing my issues I have had with my body may reach people on a level that they will also feel comfortable sharing and even dealing with their issues, head on. I have had weight issues since I was a young girl. I started noticing that I was heavier than my friends in 6th grade and I still struggle with it today. When I was in 9th grade, I began trying things to lose weight. None of which were healthy. I started taking over the counter pills to lose weight, doing cardio like crazy and eating less and less. And it worked....until I stopped acting like a psycho path, and gained most all of it back. And that cycle has been my LIFE for last 15 years. Yes, I am 29, we can all laugh it up........that's enough :) Okay, but seriously. What a destructive, dangerous cycle. At my heaviest, after I had Beau, I weighed 206lbs.:( ugh, that feels horrible to type and even worse to re-read...So I did what I know how to do. Temporarily fix the problem. Cardio, crash diet, fad diet, whatever will work the fastest and least painful, and the yo-yo weights continue. Let's skip to present day...I have had another child since then, so three total, and my body is becoming much more temperamental. Every calorie I don't watch becomes extra weight on me. I can't even look at a carb without my waist size increasing. Maybe, it is because I am turning 30 this year, but I have this overwhelming drive to change my body, not for the temporary, but permanently. There is nothing wrong with cutting calories and doing cardio, but it's not going to work for me anymore, and I am guessing that if you have tried it, you also know, the results are very hard to maintain. I am going to have to challenge myself to be stronger. Work harder. And finally reach my goals. I don't want to just lose weight. As a matter of fact, I could care less if I lost 1lb. I want to be physically fit. I want to see muscles in place of fat and I want to be proud of my body. I have begun a journey on a path of physical fitness and I am not looking back. I am so thankful to have you all to share this with. In a way, it's like have hundreds of people to hold me accountable! So thank you. Here are some of the things I am going to be doing to obtain my goals:
Logging ALL of my food in a journal-I am using Fitness Pal:)
Boot camp-Monday, Wednesday, Friday with Chris Warner at 545am. (seriously come join me. it will ROCK your world)
Hot Yoga-once a week
Prayer-every time I am tempted to eat something unhealthy, I am going to PRAY instead. God has the power to change our minds if we ask Him.
Let's do this!! Love y'all!!!